Tuesday, August 01, 20069:22 PM
who ever who read this....
Who ever read this... do not comment...
I just want to vent out all my fustrations... that's all...
I must admit that my mood has been quite bad recently.. couldnt sleep well at night... and i get irritated easily.. dun ask me why or what happened... i dunno and i dun wish to talk about it...
dunno if i'm getting more sensitive... i'm beginning to feel uncomfortable about how ppl view me or any comments made to me.. i hate comments now.. sometimes... i really feel reduncdant and useless... everyone around me seems to be doing well in their own position... i'm trying very hard to do as well... but i'm still lacking behind... i'm always told to be patient... always say i'm not good enough and need more practice... but if i'm not given then chance to even 'practice' how can i ever be good?? i hate this kind of feeling.. it sucks!
i cant say i'm very unhappy with what i am now.. there are times when i really feel very happy and satisfied with what i am now.. but there are times... when i feel really down... and i began to doubt what i'm doing now.. i tot.. i hope i will always feel this way... but somehow... things isnt what i tot... how do i make myself happy and satisfied always???
arggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!