Sunday, December 11, 200512:46 AM
long day
it's been a long day.. haiz..
had very bad cramp today.. din feel like doing anything excet to lie flat on my bed... had plan to watch "perhaps love" but the cramp took away all my enthu... haiz...
just came back not long ago.. went to town again.. din wan to but had no choice... cos have to go give xiaoben money if not she cant eat dinner.. walk around orchard while waiting for her to knock off.. she look so exhausted in the car... somehow, i felt sad.. i dunno why.. i tot i saw how i was like 4 years back.. when i first started work after o level.. my only thought in mind was to get home quickly and make her comfortable so that she wont feel so tired tml.. she's on full shift tml... my poor ger.. she's a new ger... y did they let her work full shift on her 2nd day???
the thought of xiao ben not at nome anymore saddenise me.. i dunno y... i kind of cant bear to let her go work... if i have the ability, i wun let her go work and suffer... but i now i dun have that kind of ability... and it's also a goos experience for her... but still...
my mood swings is terrible these few days.. i can be very very happy now.. but the next moment, i can become very moody.. sometime, i even feel like crying at night... like how im feeling now.. PMS this month seems extremly long... im feeling terrible..